Well, it’s been a while… sorry about the long time since the last update, but life got away from me…
Gene and I moved into our own place (again!!!) 3/1, making life a little chaotic for the last few weeks… I’m trying to get the house put together before the surgery, as well as becoming the domestic wife who’s suppose to cook, clean, do the laundry, keep the house neat and tidy, and make sure her husband is happy and satisfied.
I hate feeling like I need to be a Stepford wife to make my husband happy.
That being said, I’m starting to get the grove of it. I must admit though, I do like having food at home and cooking.. I SUCK at cooking though, and am really needing to find things that are easy to make, have minimal ingredients, and preferably go in a crock pot… I am starting to get excited about all the different soups and stuff I get to make for post-surgery, which is coming up a lot quicker than I thought!!
We’re going to start a fish, salad, water diet next week and see if that helps gene also.. He’s starting to get competitive, which is good because I want him to lose weight in order to feel better about himself! I think he’s one handsome man no matter what, but he’s always downing himself.. I feel bad that he doesn’t see himself how I see him.. So I’ll do whatever I can to support him in making better choices!
April 4 is rounding the corner FAST!! I can’t believe that it’s less than a month away! I have my pre-op meeting/class on March 20th, which Gene will attend with me. Then, my last day of work while I take Short Term Disability to heal is on April 2nd, as the day before surgery will be a liquid only day, thus making me a VERY cranky and pitiful human. I don’t wish that upon my co-workers, nor my attorneys who would get VERY crappy work out of me that day…
As far as weight loss, I’ve totaled about 8 pounds so far, since I started really paying attention the beginning of February. I’m hoping to lose a total of 10 pounds pre-op, making my liver the correct size for the surgery. They require you to lose weight for two reasons; one, they want to make sure you are able to lose some weight on your own, and two, they need the liver to shrink some so when they go in laporscopically, they don’t nik the liver while cutting my stomach.
Ok… That’s about as much focus as I can spare on a Friday… Have a great weekend!!!!
Friday, March 16, 2012
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
we have a date!!!!
Woo hoo!!! Gastric Sleeve was approved, and I officially have a surgery date:
April 4!!
Holy crap. April 4…
That’s coming up.
We’re moving on March 1st, which is awesome, but that means I need to have the house put together BY April 1st (what a cruel April fool’s joke). Plus, my sister’s baby shower is on March 31, and I am helping plan that.. That is going to be fun!!
I’ve been hearing a lot of people talk in my ear about the speed of which I’m going through this process. I mean, I don’t know if it’s right or wrong, but I find it hard to believe that a team of doctors, and surgeon who’s study weight loss surgery for years, would just throw me to the wolves and rush me through.
It’ll be 4 months since my first appointment when I have the surgery. Im excited that I’m having it, but I also understand the risk of it going so quickly. Then again, I also understand the cons to waiting 9-12 months.
Everybody is different. There are people in this program that have been doing it for 8 months, and they aren’t even seeing the surgeon yet! I mean, I know the doctors know what they are doing, and trust their system.
That being said, I need to get my butt moving even more and get down to business… This is go time, and I’m SOOO ready for it!!!
April 4!!
Holy crap. April 4…
That’s coming up.
We’re moving on March 1st, which is awesome, but that means I need to have the house put together BY April 1st (what a cruel April fool’s joke). Plus, my sister’s baby shower is on March 31, and I am helping plan that.. That is going to be fun!!
I’ve been hearing a lot of people talk in my ear about the speed of which I’m going through this process. I mean, I don’t know if it’s right or wrong, but I find it hard to believe that a team of doctors, and surgeon who’s study weight loss surgery for years, would just throw me to the wolves and rush me through.
It’ll be 4 months since my first appointment when I have the surgery. Im excited that I’m having it, but I also understand the risk of it going so quickly. Then again, I also understand the cons to waiting 9-12 months.
Everybody is different. There are people in this program that have been doing it for 8 months, and they aren’t even seeing the surgeon yet! I mean, I know the doctors know what they are doing, and trust their system.
That being said, I need to get my butt moving even more and get down to business… This is go time, and I’m SOOO ready for it!!!
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
well, that threw a kink in things...
So, when life hands you lemons, you make sugar free lemonaid, right???
Turns out, Lap Band isn't approved with the FDA for patients with Crohn's. Lame. Sauce.
So after further discussion, and even further research, I've decided to go ahead and go in the direction of the Gastric Sleeve.
The biggest difference is the fact that it's a far more invasive surgery. I'd have to stay overnight, and the down time is much longer... I'd be out of work for 3-4 weeks, meaning I would be taking Short Term Disability, rather than a week to heal.
Another big difference is the fact that I wont be having to go in monthly for fills. Lap Band requires a saline fill in order for the band to get smaller around the stomach. The sleeve gives a smiliar effect, without the foreign body in your body!
One downfall is the fact it isn't clear whether or not my insurance will cover it. So Dr. Halpin's office is in the process of getting it approved through BCBS of MA... So please send me some good thoughts/prayers/juju!!!
Now, this isn't to say one is better or worse. I find people are really stubborn about the fact theirs is the best. Frankly, im tired of hearing it..
So i'm at the point that I'm making the choice for what's best for me, my body, and my health. Gene has been, well, Gene.. He's just doing whatever I want, and goes back to playing Call of Duty (thanks Dan)...
Along those lines, I met with the Physical Therepist yesterday. He was cute, which sucks... Cute guy telling me to work out = emily anne feeling more like a fatty...
BUT!!!
he did help me realize that I can burn 2100 calories a week by walking a simple 36 minutes a day..
Why 36 minutes, you ask??
omg, the math was too confusing... i give up...
its 36 minutes because tony, the dreamy PT told me to...
so i'm walking during my breaks at work, and some at lunch too.. pretty nice break, but puts a killer in my sitting at the desk job.. guess i dont have an excuse anymore..
Turns out, Lap Band isn't approved with the FDA for patients with Crohn's. Lame. Sauce.
So after further discussion, and even further research, I've decided to go ahead and go in the direction of the Gastric Sleeve.
The biggest difference is the fact that it's a far more invasive surgery. I'd have to stay overnight, and the down time is much longer... I'd be out of work for 3-4 weeks, meaning I would be taking Short Term Disability, rather than a week to heal.
Another big difference is the fact that I wont be having to go in monthly for fills. Lap Band requires a saline fill in order for the band to get smaller around the stomach. The sleeve gives a smiliar effect, without the foreign body in your body!
One downfall is the fact it isn't clear whether or not my insurance will cover it. So Dr. Halpin's office is in the process of getting it approved through BCBS of MA... So please send me some good thoughts/prayers/juju!!!
Now, this isn't to say one is better or worse. I find people are really stubborn about the fact theirs is the best. Frankly, im tired of hearing it..
So i'm at the point that I'm making the choice for what's best for me, my body, and my health. Gene has been, well, Gene.. He's just doing whatever I want, and goes back to playing Call of Duty (thanks Dan)...
Along those lines, I met with the Physical Therepist yesterday. He was cute, which sucks... Cute guy telling me to work out = emily anne feeling more like a fatty...
BUT!!!
he did help me realize that I can burn 2100 calories a week by walking a simple 36 minutes a day..
Why 36 minutes, you ask??
omg, the math was too confusing... i give up...
its 36 minutes because tony, the dreamy PT told me to...
so i'm walking during my breaks at work, and some at lunch too.. pretty nice break, but puts a killer in my sitting at the desk job.. guess i dont have an excuse anymore..
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Very Baby Steps!!
Its a small step, but I wanted to share it.
Grandma made homemade hamburgers last night, and she made me two patties..
I only had one, and saved the other for lunch today..
Super small step, but one im really proud of! I've proven to myself that i CAN control my portion, and i just need to really stay aware of it!
Im quite proud of myself...
Grandma made homemade hamburgers last night, and she made me two patties..
I only had one, and saved the other for lunch today..
Super small step, but one im really proud of! I've proven to myself that i CAN control my portion, and i just need to really stay aware of it!
Im quite proud of myself...
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
This ball seems to be rolling fast!
So, its been a minute.. I SWORE I wouldn’t be the type to only update every month or so, so I need to make the mindful choice to update this blog more often…
Mindful like how I need to be eating!!!
See what I did there??? Im witty.
Seriously though. Here’s an update as to what is going on in my Road to Lap Band!!
January 12, 2012- I had my introduction meeting with the entire Legacy Good Sam (LGS) team... I really liked them! I mean, I know they were probably putting on a bit of a show for me, as I was new and they wanted me to feel welcome, but I really think I picked the correct place. I like their approach to my surgery in that they are giving me the tools, and I am to take them and be successful. They are just the implements in my success. This is a big step for me in learning how to be healthy and fit.
So they gave me lots of paper work, and I did the crazy test, which just proved I have insanely (HA! Did it again!!) high anxiety. Nothing new to me, but good that they understand it’s a daily issue for me…
January 24, 2012- I had several appointments this day. I saw the RN first, who really just checked me out again to make sure my labs were somewhat normal. I have to do a sleep study because I snore, but I swear!! It’s because of my nose being broken! She also gave me a script for Vit. D (50,000 units) as I was low, and I need to start taking a multi vitamin. I will be taking a vitamin for the rest of my life.. Shouldn’t be much different than the other meds I have to take… But hopefully with the surgery, it will help me shed lbs, and better control the diabetes!
I then met with the dietitian who REALLY woke me up. She showed me how much just ONE pound of fat is, and helped me understand what foods are better for me to with both my weight, diabetes, and Crohns. I think out of everyone (other than the receptionist), she’s my favorite. I feel like she’s going to be the biggest champion there for my success, other than myself of course!
That brings us to today, and in fact just now… I just got a call with Dr. Halpin’s office to schedule my PRE-OP APPOINTMENT!!!
I know.. quick..
But here is the thing.. They recognize I have the tools in my tool box.. I just need the car to work on.. AND! I still need clearance from the insurance company for the surgery itself, so it’s not going to happen anytime soon, that’s for sure.. I imagine late February, early March. PLUS I still need to lose some weight before the surgery to shrink my liver and to prove I’m able to do it on my own. There is this pre-op diet I have to go on that is lots of calcium and blah foods, but honestly, I couldn’t be more excited to eat cottage cheese!
I’m so excited that this is moving forward and I am able to have a rough idea of when this is going to happen! This makes me even more excited to lose some pre-surgery weight and get better eating habits. It’s about self-control now and learning better ways to look at food…
Doesn’t mean I’m not scared shitless at the new phase in my life. But it’s a healthy fear. It’s something that is going to keep me from failing.
I can’t fail. It’s not an option.
Mindful like how I need to be eating!!!
See what I did there??? Im witty.
Seriously though. Here’s an update as to what is going on in my Road to Lap Band!!
January 12, 2012- I had my introduction meeting with the entire Legacy Good Sam (LGS) team... I really liked them! I mean, I know they were probably putting on a bit of a show for me, as I was new and they wanted me to feel welcome, but I really think I picked the correct place. I like their approach to my surgery in that they are giving me the tools, and I am to take them and be successful. They are just the implements in my success. This is a big step for me in learning how to be healthy and fit.
So they gave me lots of paper work, and I did the crazy test, which just proved I have insanely (HA! Did it again!!) high anxiety. Nothing new to me, but good that they understand it’s a daily issue for me…
January 24, 2012- I had several appointments this day. I saw the RN first, who really just checked me out again to make sure my labs were somewhat normal. I have to do a sleep study because I snore, but I swear!! It’s because of my nose being broken! She also gave me a script for Vit. D (50,000 units) as I was low, and I need to start taking a multi vitamin. I will be taking a vitamin for the rest of my life.. Shouldn’t be much different than the other meds I have to take… But hopefully with the surgery, it will help me shed lbs, and better control the diabetes!
I then met with the dietitian who REALLY woke me up. She showed me how much just ONE pound of fat is, and helped me understand what foods are better for me to with both my weight, diabetes, and Crohns. I think out of everyone (other than the receptionist), she’s my favorite. I feel like she’s going to be the biggest champion there for my success, other than myself of course!
That brings us to today, and in fact just now… I just got a call with Dr. Halpin’s office to schedule my PRE-OP APPOINTMENT!!!
I know.. quick..
But here is the thing.. They recognize I have the tools in my tool box.. I just need the car to work on.. AND! I still need clearance from the insurance company for the surgery itself, so it’s not going to happen anytime soon, that’s for sure.. I imagine late February, early March. PLUS I still need to lose some weight before the surgery to shrink my liver and to prove I’m able to do it on my own. There is this pre-op diet I have to go on that is lots of calcium and blah foods, but honestly, I couldn’t be more excited to eat cottage cheese!
I’m so excited that this is moving forward and I am able to have a rough idea of when this is going to happen! This makes me even more excited to lose some pre-surgery weight and get better eating habits. It’s about self-control now and learning better ways to look at food…
Doesn’t mean I’m not scared shitless at the new phase in my life. But it’s a healthy fear. It’s something that is going to keep me from failing.
I can’t fail. It’s not an option.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
go big or go home...
Man, when i end up cheating, i cheat hardcore...
i did not stick to my calorie count this week whatsoever... i feel like when i have a routine and structure around, i do better. thats not an excuse, thats just a fact...
i really see now why lap band will make me more successful...
when i have something or someone telling me "no" or "thats not allowed", i do better. i have always been one to just follow the rules or do what im told.. when left to my own devises, i end up, more often than not, messing up or screwing myself over.
lap band is going to give me the structure and routine, 24/7, that i so DESPERATELY seek... i want to be able to live life how i do, but without the option of failing...
because i cannot fail. i WILL NOT fail...
so tomorrow is a new day. tomorrow is a day to get BACK to routine and structure, and all i can do is try. all i can do is do the best i can, and see what'll happen..
but im not gonna lie... those Hershey kisses were amazing!!!
i did not stick to my calorie count this week whatsoever... i feel like when i have a routine and structure around, i do better. thats not an excuse, thats just a fact...
i really see now why lap band will make me more successful...
when i have something or someone telling me "no" or "thats not allowed", i do better. i have always been one to just follow the rules or do what im told.. when left to my own devises, i end up, more often than not, messing up or screwing myself over.
lap band is going to give me the structure and routine, 24/7, that i so DESPERATELY seek... i want to be able to live life how i do, but without the option of failing...
because i cannot fail. i WILL NOT fail...
so tomorrow is a new day. tomorrow is a day to get BACK to routine and structure, and all i can do is try. all i can do is do the best i can, and see what'll happen..
but im not gonna lie... those Hershey kisses were amazing!!!
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
man, this isnt a great start...
ok, so 2012 started, and i ate myself silly...
not the start i was hoping for..
BUT!!! today is new, and i have started fresh... on the advice of Donna, i got some pre-pack meals (healthy choice, lean cuisine, etc) for when im at work.. Im trying to eat 3 meals a day, with low calorie snacks in between..
So with my suggested 1,285 calorie diet that was suggested by LiveStrong.com, i have consumed 730 calories between breakfast, a snack, and lunch...
its says i have 555 calories left...
im not going to lie. I figure i'll go over with dinner...
but heres what im thinking... i dont know what the hell im doing!!!! i have no idea how to track food, make good choices, etc... im REALLY looking forward to my appointment with the dietician in a few weeks so they can tell me exactly what i need to eat.. i've never been good at figuring out big things on my own...
thats why im a paralegal.
im great at doing what im told.
im really hoping that i will get some support from Gene. I know he wants me to succeed, but the lifestyle we lead isnt very appropriate for healthy choices for food... i would never ask him to go on a diet so i dont have to look at what he's eating, but i really hope to get the support from him by way of kindness, encouraging words, and assistance in making good choices... like this morning! i wanted a Mt. Dew, and he said no dice.. he wasnt mean about it or rude, but just said "im not going to help you get that stuff." and thats what i need. i may pout and get pissed, but gene's use to that...
ok, im off to finish lunch and get back to work.. at least this Healthy Choice steamer tastes good... that would suck it they didnt taste good..
emily anne
not the start i was hoping for..
BUT!!! today is new, and i have started fresh... on the advice of Donna, i got some pre-pack meals (healthy choice, lean cuisine, etc) for when im at work.. Im trying to eat 3 meals a day, with low calorie snacks in between..
So with my suggested 1,285 calorie diet that was suggested by LiveStrong.com, i have consumed 730 calories between breakfast, a snack, and lunch...
its says i have 555 calories left...
im not going to lie. I figure i'll go over with dinner...
but heres what im thinking... i dont know what the hell im doing!!!! i have no idea how to track food, make good choices, etc... im REALLY looking forward to my appointment with the dietician in a few weeks so they can tell me exactly what i need to eat.. i've never been good at figuring out big things on my own...
thats why im a paralegal.
im great at doing what im told.
im really hoping that i will get some support from Gene. I know he wants me to succeed, but the lifestyle we lead isnt very appropriate for healthy choices for food... i would never ask him to go on a diet so i dont have to look at what he's eating, but i really hope to get the support from him by way of kindness, encouraging words, and assistance in making good choices... like this morning! i wanted a Mt. Dew, and he said no dice.. he wasnt mean about it or rude, but just said "im not going to help you get that stuff." and thats what i need. i may pout and get pissed, but gene's use to that...
ok, im off to finish lunch and get back to work.. at least this Healthy Choice steamer tastes good... that would suck it they didnt taste good..
emily anne
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