go big or go home...

Man, when i end up cheating, i cheat hardcore...

i did not stick to my calorie count this week whatsoever... i feel like when i have a routine and structure around, i do better. thats not an excuse, thats just a fact...

i really see now why lap band will make me more successful...

when i have something or someone telling me "no" or "thats not allowed", i do better. i have always been one to just follow the rules or do what im told.. when left to my own devises, i end up, more often than not, messing up or screwing myself over.

lap band is going to give me the structure and routine, 24/7, that i so DESPERATELY seek... i want to be able to live life how i do, but without the option of failing...

because i cannot fail. i WILL NOT fail...

so tomorrow is a new day. tomorrow is a day to get BACK to routine and structure, and all i can do is try. all i can do is do the best i can, and see what'll happen..

but im not gonna lie... those Hershey kisses were amazing!!!