well, im still alive... thats half the battle, right??
i havent lost much weight lately, but i am finding that it gets easier everyday to make better and healthy choices... i choose sugar free over things that are chalked full of it.. i choose high protien foods rather than carbs.. i eat breakfast!!! that is, in itself, a very amazing win!
but i still am not perfect by any means.
i dont always choose the best foods for me. i dont always exercise like i should. i dont feel like im doing EVERYTHING that i should/could be in order to make myself the most sucessfull as possible.
but again, that is why every day is different.
i wake up and say "today is the day i am going to be 100% healthy!!!". and every day, i end up making a bad choice or failing in one way or another.
but at least i am TRYING. i try EVERY SINGLE DAY to make my surgery sucessful, and to make the people who have been behind me the whole time, proud... but honestly, and maybe this isnt the BEST reason to strive for life change, but i do it to show those people who arent doing it correctly that it can be done and for those who havent been in my corner, that i am amazing.
i dont always feel amazing, but after hearing it from my husband enough, i am led to believe that he's not lying to me.
but touching back on those people who are 'cheating', i find that they make me feel like im failing or that i am not sucessful. i have to be reminded almost DAILY, often times moment by moment, that i have a different body, with a very different surgery than most weight loss surgery recipeants (its the least common weight loss surgery compaired to lapband and gastric bypass). its really, really, really, really, really, REALLY hard for me not to compair myself to others and their own succeses. being a girl, i know thats really common..
so tomorrow, when i wake up, i will say " today is the day i am going to be 100% healthy!!!", but i will also say “Why compare yourself with others? No one in the entire world can do a better job of being you than you.” ~Unknown
