a bit of a setback...

well, looks like the healing isn't going as it should be... which shouldn't be surprising, but lo and behold,  still as frustrating...

about 3 weeks ago, i started vomiting anytime i ate or drank. i was aware that this could be a problem going INTO the surgery, but this just seemed excessive. i slowed down my eating and drinking, went back to mushy foods, etc... Dr. Halpin said that this could be all normal, but i really don't feel like it is..

so on Wednesday, i went to the ER after getting some blood tests results, and being dehydrated. i was TOLD that i could get the upper GI that night if we went all the way to Good Sam from Oregon City, but yet again, there was some crap miscommunication.

this morning, i went and got the upper GI, and in the process of drinking the contrast, i threw it up.. SHOCKING. ugh. the radiologist who took the series was somewhat concerned with why the contrast wasn't going down and through my tummy like it should've, so at least now i know its not all in my head. so for now, i am waiting on a call from Dr. Halpin after she's reviewed the study, and we'll go from there..

I'm still not regretting my choice to get the sleeve. overall, its helped my health more than i every though.. I'm just frustrated with the fact my body isn't healing how it should've been... i get annoyed that gene is stuck coming to the hospital to visit me or make sure I'm not dying. i am frustrated that I'm told one minute things are fine, and the next they may not be. i frustrated that the ONLY person in my family that seems to care about how my health is is my dad. I'm frustrated. period. end of story.

i just hope i can get some answers here shortly. i cant keep stringing along my husband. i cant keep hoping for better health.

I'm exhausted. I'm weak. I'm tired. its getting old.

This has been a crazy ride!!

I went back to work last Thursday, but had to leave early because I was just too overwhelmed. Too much pain, too many people. Its crazy how being isolated in your home for 30 days will really turn you into a people-phob. I just need to get back in the swing of things, but I was just shocked at how intense everything was. Thank GOD I had my friendly faces around me, specifically Nic who is my fitness/food go-to. He is BRILLIANT when it comes to knowing the things I need and foods that are good and stuff I can do to be active. Pre-surgery, he was my sounding board every day. Frankly, I’m shocked he’ll still talk to me about this stuff! :D

It’s also shocking to me how crazy my ENTIRE body has changed. Not only have I lost weight, but I’ve noticed a few other weird changes.

My temperature is much more difficult to regulate. I am SCREAMING hot one minute, then bundled in blankets the next. I don’t mind the cold, but it’s also a different feeling of being cold. Its shivering cold, which bothers me. I really hope it goes away.

I turn red at the weirdest times. I imagine it has something to do with my temperature issues, but its odd. My arms are a bright red, WHILE typing. I mean, that isn’t normal, but when have I ever done anything normal.

I have the hiccups often. They HURT too..

I think the brain stuff is the most concerning. I am really anxious and nervous (more so than before) since surgery, and have found that if I don’t have contact with gene at least somewhat regularly, I panic… when I leave the house, I get really nervous and jittery without gene with me. When people start filing in in the mornings, I get really anxious… Around 3-4 hrs after I wake up, I start feeling a bit more normal, but it’s really upsetting. I hate starting my day off feeling like my chest is going to explode.

I have an appointment with Dr. Halpin on Friday, and after that will be my 3 month post-op appts… Wow, it’s really flown by.